With so much of the planetary family on fire (Siberia, Amazons) or in extinction by human doing I find myself in deep contemplations about it and my part in it all. Living from a knowing that all is one and having a profound resonance with the Huna belief that what I perceive as a problem is my problem and in my power to address… I do not feel removed...
For the past weeks it has been in the ethers that old relationships are coming back for restoration, resolution or dissolution. Whenever I picked up on the energy my first thought oddly enough was pulled to my father. Whom I have cut out of my life after decades of manipulations, betrayals and scheming in the family system to isolate and get at my mom and I. The couple of...
I have empathy and compassion for how my self expression makes you respond. I understand that my expressions can allow your system to utilize and distort them to self-abuse or self-denigrate and elicit defensiveness and attacks on me. Nonetheless, as you might have experienced, I will stay true to myself and express what wants to be expressed in the moment. Not from a lack of care for your feelings...
There are parts in me that prefer to bypass and avoid what was or is painful, deemed by them as shameful or inappropriate for conversation. They are the reason I learned not to mince words and call things by their true name instead of sugarcoating. These parts in me are complicit in keeping me tethered to the past and keep recreating suffering over and over again. If I cannot...
The most challenging experience I have had to date is facing, knowing and meeting the oppressor and victimizer in me. Meeting this archetype, expressing consciously and unconsciously through me, with curiosity, facing the judgements and attachments I observe arising in me when engaging with her or being identified with her, feeling the emotional responses of shame, guilt, anger, frustration, sadness and grief, contemplating the artificial sense of power, safety...
When you are being pulled in different direction by inspirations and visions of future experiences and things to create which elicit a wholehearted and inspired yes from you… and your mind gets itself unnecessarily entangled in trying to devise a strategy to make all of it come true and fails grandly and is about to go into a self sabotaging overthinking… and your higher self gives it a sharp...
There is a pattern in my life of men feeling inferior or less than me. My responses to it varying between trying to ignore it, degrees of discomfort, trying to make them realize its untruth, feeling frustrated, a shame fueled repulsion or numbness towards them…. which sometimes ended up disrupting or even ending relationships I otherwise valued highly. I had witnessed with increasing awareness the emotional charge held in...
Allow me to invite us all to dig a little deeper and ask more of ourselves in honoring sovereignty, ours and others, in our thinking, conceptualizing and acting. It is temptingly easy to walk the path of the ego and uphold narratives of victimhood and helplessness while giving away our power by blaming life or others for the pain and challenges we face. Our cultures have conditioned our responses...
As I am opening to dating again I am having interesting experiences and challenges after years of retreating and mainly warding off unwanted attention. There is power in consciously shifting our energy to open to other beings and welcoming unions and partnerships into our life. Being invested in self work, growth, non-monogamy, spirituality, travel and interculturality and living a rather eccentric life made for amusing experiences of being lost...
There are foundational and non-negotiable aspects to the way I choose to live my life and what I welcome, cherish and love in others. I take full responsibility for my life, my experiences, my emotions, thoughts and actions. I work on being accountable and actively work on repairing the damage I caused and on learning to be more mindful and sensitive to the boundaries and needs of others. Yet...
