I have a triune inner child made up of the innocent and pure essence of my being, the wounded child frozen in time and pain and the warrior protecting the wounded child. For the longest time I have thought of my inner protector as an adult and powerful aspect of myself as my perception of her was colored by a deep set and disempowered victim mindset and perception. Through...
I haven’t cried this much while reading a book in decades. I cried over the perpetuations of pain across generations, the relational mutilation of the men I know intimately and love, the pain their pain brought to our relationships and me, I cried over all the wasted energy in attempting to understand, help and support when the men were too blind or afraid to truly face their truth and...
This image resonated deeply with my heart and made me come back to it again and again until I heard the message I was meant to hear in full. My heart whispered: “If someone, whom your conditioning, culture, religion or society has labeled as “less than,” enters your experience pause and expand into full presence. Know viscerally that the differences your mind seems to perceive are mere illusions in...
When feeling the lack of reciprocity in a relationship and my confused and wounded inner child reaches her sticky little hands to grasp for a beloved’s love, care or attention my impersonal self takes her little hands, gently cleaning them while speaking of our wholeness to her. She calls in the part who learned to be incredibly attentive, caring, loving and present with partners, their needs, wants and desires...
Attachment to depth attracted shallowness, Attachment to the inner attracted the outer. Preference for emotional and spiritual intimacy attracted mere mental and physical intimacy. Preference and attachment to anything creates the experience of the contrast and thereby cultivates suffering. Such is the price of choosing to play in duality and separation consciousness. Stepping back, releasing attachments and preferences, moving into equanimity and freedom from cycles of self-perpetuated and co-created...
“Manifestation can only be satisfying and truly effective when it arises out of the Being state of consciousness” ~ Eckhart Tolle I have been contemplating for the past couple of days how manifestation techniques change with the expansion of our access of consciousness and self-integration work. As we progress less and less of our willfulness and physical doing is called for in the earlier stages of manifesting, and in...
For a while now I have been having seemingly disjointed episodical dreams with an underlying theme which kept eluding my mind until this morning. Every episode allowed me, as the lucid dreamer, to observe the dream self interact with people from previous chapters in my life and people I haven’t met in this life. Every night seems to come with a parade of people that are revisited and released...
With so much of the planetary family on fire (Siberia, Amazons) or in extinction by human doing I find myself in deep contemplations about it and my part in it all. Living from a knowing that all is one and having a profound resonance with the Huna belief that what I perceive as a problem is my problem and in my power to address… I do not feel removed...
For the past weeks it has been in the ethers that old relationships are coming back for restoration, resolution or dissolution. Whenever I picked up on the energy my first thought oddly enough was pulled to my father. Whom I have cut out of my life after decades of manipulations, betrayals and scheming in the family system to isolate and get at my mom and I. The couple of...
I have empathy and compassion for how my self expression makes you respond. I understand that my expressions can allow your system to utilize and distort them to self-abuse or self-denigrate and elicit defensiveness and attacks on me. Nonetheless, as you might have experienced, I will stay true to myself and express what wants to be expressed in the moment. Not from a lack of care for your feelings...
