This year has been about realizing and embracing uncomfortable truths, making hard decisions and holding myself accountable to a higher standard than before. It has been a year of illuminating and cleaning up what my ego successfully hid under carpets and in dark corners of my mind. A year of cutting out little and not so little ways my ego cuts corners with regards to my health and wellbeing...
There are these strangely beautiful moments when a catalyst lures me in with an energy I read as promise of a joyful connection as I have not yet experienced in this incarnation but my soul is one with. They often took me by surprise, arising mostly in chance encounters that sparkled with a special kind of glitter. But none of these have been as potent and devastatingly glorious as the...
I was raised in adverse circumstances that favored and rewarded strength and harshness and mercilessly exploited tenderness and sensitivity to torture and deride the little girl I once was. To survive I emulated these attitudes consciously and subconsciously in parts of my internal tribe. Inadvertently and sadly taking up the role of abuser towards myself and others in its wake. Rarely allowing myself to feel or own moments of...
I want to share a bit of my healing story as an acknowledgement of the cycle I have been experiencing and as a seed of contemplation, feeling or sensed transformation for you. In the past 5 years I have shared a little on the disruptions, betrayals and ending of friendships that were very dear and precious to me. Yet I did so only haltingly and while keeping the depth...
There are many facets and sides to me. Sides most of you never encountered, regardless if they are light or dark. It has been a long journey of coming to terms with the broadness of the spectrum of emotions, behaviors and thoughts I am capable of holding and embodying. A long journey to embrace the parts that triggered my fears and deeply embedded and repressed feelings of shame. There...
We decide with which layers of reality we wish to engage with, regardless if its consensus matrix reality or the larger undistorted reality of existence. There are no false decisions, every choice is a valid path of exploration in the game of consciousness. No need to police or change another’s choices and perspective vantage points. There is nothing to fix or try to understand there. (Note to self!) ...
The transformational power of awareness lies in pure perception without the interference of limitations and distortions arising from words, concepts and conditionings, collective agreements. When pure awareness shines the light of perception on something it knows it down to the multi-dimensional nature and creative potentiality of consciousness it is made of. It is the power of this kind of perception that awakens flow and transformative potentiality in the observed...
It is hard for me to find adequate words for the experience I find myself immersed in. I am in awe and floating in an ocean of gratitude for the tender loving care I am experiencing at the hands of my Self as she heeded my call for support in healing and transmuting the distortions I hold in my field. Another way of describing said distortions would be trauma,...
I am feeling the end of a large cycle in my life. About two decades of learning multidimensional lessons on relationships, self love and sovereignty. Looking back I am in awe and gratitude for the growth, knowledge, integration and wisdom these life lessons brought to me. I am grateful for the friends, lovers and partners who availed themselves in this game of consciousness playing at being one and many....
Do not touch me and keep your soul out of your fingertips… Die into me or don’t come to me at all. ~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer Happy new year, Happy new being. Welcoming new baselines for relating, Welcoming new soul tribe who are destined to share and create with me. Welcoming fellow mystics, spiritual warriors, sky fathers, earth mothers, healers, shamans, alchemists and divine children and our magical co-creations....
