There are parts in me that prefer to bypass and avoid what was or is painful, deemed by them as shameful or inappropriate for conversation. They are the reason I learned not to mince words and call things by their true name instead of sugarcoating. These parts in me are complicit in keeping me tethered to the past and keep recreating suffering over and over again. If I cannot...
The most challenging experience I have had to date is facing, knowing and meeting the oppressor and victimizer in me. Meeting this archetype, expressing consciously and unconsciously through me, with curiosity, facing the judgements and attachments I observe arising in me when engaging with her or being identified with her, feeling the emotional responses of shame, guilt, anger, frustration, sadness and grief, contemplating the artificial sense of power, safety...
When you are being pulled in different direction by inspirations and visions of future experiences and things to create which elicit a wholehearted and inspired yes from you… and your mind gets itself unnecessarily entangled in trying to devise a strategy to make all of it come true and fails grandly and is about to go into a self sabotaging overthinking… and your higher self gives it a sharp...
There is a pattern in my life of men feeling inferior or less than me. My responses to it varying between trying to ignore it, degrees of discomfort, trying to make them realize its untruth, feeling frustrated, a shame fueled repulsion or numbness towards them…. which sometimes ended up disrupting or even ending relationships I otherwise valued highly. I had witnessed with increasing awareness the emotional charge held in...
Allow me to invite us all to dig a little deeper and ask more of ourselves in honoring sovereignty, ours and others, in our thinking, conceptualizing and acting. It is temptingly easy to walk the path of the ego and uphold narratives of victimhood and helplessness while giving away our power by blaming life or others for the pain and challenges we face. Our cultures have conditioned our responses...
As I am opening to dating again I am having interesting experiences and challenges after years of retreating and mainly warding off unwanted attention. There is power in consciously shifting our energy to open to other beings and welcoming unions and partnerships into our life. Being invested in self work, growth, non-monogamy, spirituality, travel and interculturality and living a rather eccentric life made for amusing experiences of being lost...
There are foundational and non-negotiable aspects to the way I choose to live my life and what I welcome, cherish and love in others. I take full responsibility for my life, my experiences, my emotions, thoughts and actions. I work on being accountable and actively work on repairing the damage I caused and on learning to be more mindful and sensitive to the boundaries and needs of others. Yet...
“in the in-between spaces of being, in the multitude of questions with no answers yet, in the disconcerting not-knowing i will meet your rawness in its multi-facetted beauty with tenderness. in the training grounds of compassion and love i will meet your growing trust and brightening light with delight. in the eye of the storm of your fears i will meet your excitement and dance with your spirit… in...
A lot of the social contracts and rituals we have in our cultures, which pretend to serve peace and connection in our community are essentially serving the matrix and keep us firmly asleep. When you take time to meditate on this you might arrive at the knowing that humans are in no need for formal, static rules of engagement or rituals, whose roots and meanings are “lost” on us...
Once again the fabric of life has woven our threads together and rekindled feelings of love in my heart as fond memories came to life. I doubt the flame ever died down in me, though I rarely allowed myself to dwell on us in the years since our break up. Maybe the strange experiences of the past months served to show me that I had kept loving you way...
