musings
04/03/2021

The Invitation

I have been contemplating the outstanding and exquisite nature of a conversation with a stranger recently encountered on my walk. Trying to remember when last I had a comparable experience of effortless and seamless flow of understanding, knowing, expansion, inspiration and the wonderment of encountering oneness, sameness and differentiation concurrently and blissfully.  Thinking back and sense-feeling through memories of encounters with beloveds and inspiring beings on my path I only came...

musings
22/02/2021

in the void

called back to the core sensing the need for a new path one free from the weight of what was listening to the wisdom and potentiality of now time has no meaning or abode here human scripts are but a thin specter the numinous rays of the eternal sun call for evolution the lilting voice of gaia whispers of cycles and rebirth as the soul attunes to new harmonic...

musings
17/01/2021

New self, new Year

My newly reborn self is very different to the previous iteration I have been living from in the past decade. Born from the former iterations long journey of healing trauma, integrating inner selves, finding the oneness of all dualities, balancing masculine and feminine energies and ventures into the void, she is a more fiery warrior, playful being, easy lover, intuitive networker, mystical dancer, and sovereign being....

musingsself work
12/12/2020

2020 Hindsight

This year has been about realizing and embracing uncomfortable truths, making hard decisions and holding myself accountable to a higher standard than before. It has been a year of illuminating and cleaning up what my ego successfully hid under carpets and in dark corners of my mind. A year of cutting out little and not so little ways my ego cuts corners with regards to my health and wellbeing...

musings
13/11/2020

Unbreak and let me Blossom in Wholeness and Union Beloved

There are these strangely beautiful moments when a catalyst lures me in with an energy I read as promise of a joyful connection as I have not yet experienced in this incarnation but my soul is one with. They often took me by surprise, arising mostly in chance encounters that sparkled with a special kind of glitter. But none of these have been as potent and devastatingly glorious as the...

musings
03/11/2020

On Fragility, Tenderness and Sensitivity

I was raised in adverse circumstances that favored and rewarded strength and harshness and mercilessly exploited tenderness and sensitivity to torture and deride the little girl I once was. To survive I emulated these attitudes consciously and subconsciously in parts of my internal tribe. Inadvertently and sadly taking up the role of abuser towards myself and others in its wake. Rarely allowing myself to feel or own moments of...

musingsspirituality
11/09/2020

Hello from the Other Side

There are many facets and sides to me. Sides most of you never encountered, regardless if they are light or dark. It has been a long journey of coming to terms with the broadness of the spectrum of emotions, behaviors and thoughts I am capable of holding and embodying. A long journey to embrace the parts that triggered my fears and deeply embedded and repressed feelings of shame. There...

musings
21/02/2020

Closing The Ranks

We decide with which layers of reality we wish to engage with, regardless if its consensus matrix reality or the larger undistorted reality of existence. There are no false decisions, every choice is a valid path of exploration in the game of consciousness. No need to police or change another’s choices and perspective vantage points. There is nothing to fix or try to understand there. (Note to self!)  ...

musings
30/01/2020

Awareness

The transformational power of awareness lies in pure perception without the interference of limitations and distortions arising from words, concepts and conditionings, collective agreements.  When pure awareness shines the light of perception on something it knows it down to the multi-dimensional nature and creative potentiality of consciousness it is made of. It is the power of this kind of perception that awakens flow and transformative potentiality in the observed...

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