I will end this lecture by telling you that the fear is not real. It is truly an illusion, but you must go through it by feeling it. Through the gateway of feeling your weakness lies your strength; through the gateway of feeling your pain lies your pleasure and joy; through the gateway of feeling your fear lies your security and safety; through the gateway of feeling your loneliness...
It is important to look at the identifications and labels we use for ourselves. There is a need to delve deeper and make conscious which part of us and why it chose them and which beliefs, judgements and fears attach us to them. There is a need to look at their diametral opposite and see where and why it, or the traits associated with it, may lie repressed and...
“Shadow work is the path of the heart warrior.” ~ Carl Jung I have spent large parts of the past years witnessing my shadow aspects as closely as I could while living my mundane life. You could say my awareness was permanently split in external and internal awareness for the duration of their arising and raging. Which was often. There is an eerie duality of drives when facing the...
There are feelings and memories frozen in time, their exquisiteness a memory of love and adoration held suspended in a timeless sphere. When I happened upon them by serendipity I was taken by their forgotten beauty, my heart resonant with love and joy as memories light as delicate scents enchanted my mind. Slowing down I breathe into this experience, a reawakening and experiencing of what I had deemed gone...
The child in its ignorance craves an exclusive love that is not humanly possible. The love it wants is selfish; it does not want to share love with others, with brothers or sisters or even with the other parent. The child is often unconsciously jealous of both parents. Ye if the parents do not love each other, the child suffers even more. So the first conflict arises from two...
2018 is to date my most fruitful and rewarding spiritual gardening year. A confluence of new insights and knowing which created more internal cohesion, new spiritual tools and practices that enabled the healing of deep childhood traumas and more self loving choices on my part created a bountiful inner garden. It is an awesome feeling to look back at a year and feel more than content with the work...
“According to the tenets of Easter Occultism, DARKNESS is the one true actuality, the basis and root of light, without which the latter could never manifest itself, nor even exist. Light is matter, and DARKNESS pure Spirit. Darkness, in its radical metaphysical basis, is subjective and absolute light; while the latter in all its seeming effulgence and glory, is merely a mass of shadows, as it can never be...
I appreciate the gift of having aquired deeper insights and intimacy with the habituated groves of my thinking. Especially those groves which leak my energy and drain me of my joy and love or worse that would lead me into the darkness of depression and suicidal bleakness. I have had a year of stark revelations and truths about my thinking, my self and relationship needs and patterns which had...
I see a lot of people feeling burned out and overwhelmed with the current energies and the amount of anger, frustration, fear and resignation they feel and on the other hand those who make fun of the pain and suffering of others due to a lack of empathy. I have experiences myself in both states and still feel myself drawn into them or realize I have unconsciously slipped in...
“Sorry!” is often not enough when you hurt someone or cross their boundaries in unacceptable ways to their being. “A good apology is like antibiotic, a bad apology is like rubbing salt in the wound.” ~ Randy Pausch I used to think of apologies as the panacea of healing or an adding of insult to injury depending on their delivery and subsequent actions. As I operated from the idea that...
