I am looking back at my year of intentionally and actively moving out of my hermit mode by socializing more and opening to new ways of being of service. Though not having been totally isolated from socializing, my past years have been spent in a calming and healing retreat by keeping my circle small and interactions with strangers transient, short and sweet. In the past six months I have...
Being someone who defaults to avoidant patterns when triggered or under-resourced I had my struggles with having needs and being needy throughout this lifetime. My system now embraces that we have needs, and that some of them are better or only met with others. This no longer discomforts me or strikes fear into my heart, thankfully it has become something beautiful to be experienced, shared, received and celebrated in...
Acceptance doesn’t equal tolerance or willingness to engage with something for me, it means “I see you and accept your existence” in my world. The past has gifted me the realization of how fundamental acceptance is to my inner peace. And has cultivated an appreciation for how it calms my being and gives me more resources to meet life in a more lighthearted, creative and playful way. Another aspect...
I am naming these contemplations with a wink and smile as I have been following the criticism and indignation about saying ‘New Year, New Me’ by advocates of the worthiness and value of the present self as is. Which I concur with while I can also read the words in other resonant ways. The winter solstice illuminated a vast shift in my energy, which ripped through some veils of...
Be present. Be the most ensouled version of me I can be. Be in a sustained zero point consciousness and detachment. Be playful with duality from an embodied knowing of oneness. Be open and welcoming to learning and trying new things. BE kind to self, taking exceptionally good and consistent care of my physical, emotional, mental and spiritual body in all the ways they need. Be selective in the...
2023 has been a challenging year to my earth element as it confronted me with several disruptive twists and changes that kept undoing any external sense of flow or consistency, necessitating that I practice living by my inner vision and sense of flow and security. And yet in its disruptive, and expressly impermanent, nature it has rooted me more deeply into earthy qualities like grounding, stability, fertility, abundance, nurturing,...
As many things in my experience the health issues I had to face in the past year served as an initiation into subtler levels of the mystery of embodied life. Which I, as usual, only can realize more fully now. Illness, especially one that is connected with a potential for death, has a way of triggering existential fears. Fears as old as our ancestral lineages, fears embedded in every...
Much of what has been written on middle age and becoming a crone only partially resonates with me, if it does at all. I feel the relative truth of what I hear and read, my truth though related is different. From my vantage point my experience and truth feels more expansive, as it does not limit me to a form, gender narratives, nor ancestral myths. The states I am...
I have been once again contemplating death more deeply and intimately for the past year. Which is always a wonderful exploration as I realize where my being stands in relation to death. How many of my inner tribe still fear death and how many have embraced it as part of life? And if they have embraced it in which way they perceive and make sense of it. What once...
I have been quiet here as I was focused on dealing with health concerns. To be confronted with decisions that take me to the edge of my comfort zone and beyond, having to learn about a diagnosis I have not been familiar with, and listening deeply to hear the voice of my body and consciousness in deciding on treatment plans, and more has been monopolizing on my bandwidth and...
