New Year, New Me

I am naming these contemplations with a wink and smile as I have been following the criticism and indignation about saying ‘New Year, New Me’ by advocates of the worthiness and value of the present self as is. Which I concur with while I can also read the words in other resonant ways. The winter solstice illuminated a vast shift in my energy, which ripped through some veils of...

Intentions for the New Cycle 2024

Be present. Be the most ensouled version of me I can be. Be in a sustained zero point consciousness and detachment. Be playful with duality from an embodied knowing of oneness. Be open and welcoming to learning and trying new things. BE kind to self, taking exceptionally good and consistent care of my physical, emotional, mental and spiritual body in all the ways they need. Be selective in the...

Things 2023 Taught and Gifted Me

2023 has been a challenging year to my earth element as it confronted me with several disruptive twists and changes that kept undoing any external sense of flow or consistency, necessitating that I practice living by my inner vision and sense of flow and security.  And yet in its disruptive, and expressly impermanent, nature it has rooted me more deeply into earthy qualities like grounding, stability, fertility, abundance, nurturing,...

Health Lessons

As many things in my experience the health issues I had to face in the past year served as an initiation into subtler levels of the mystery of embodied life. Which I, as usual, only can realize more fully now. Illness, especially one that is connected with a potential for death, has a way of triggering existential fears. Fears as old as our ancestral lineages, fears embedded in every...

Becoming a Crone

Much of what has been written on middle age and becoming a crone only partially resonates with me, if it does at all. I feel the relative truth of what I hear and read, my truth though related is different. From my vantage point my experience and truth feels more expansive, as it does not limit me to a form, gender narratives, nor ancestral myths.  The states I am...

Death

I have been once again contemplating death more deeply and intimately for the past year. Which is always a wonderful exploration as I realize where my being stands in relation to death. How many of my inner tribe still fear death and how many have embraced it as part of life? And if they have embraced it in which way they perceive and make sense of it. What once...

Silence

I have been quiet here as I was focused on dealing with health concerns.  To be confronted with decisions that take me to the edge of my comfort zone and beyond, having to learn about a diagnosis I have not been familiar with, and listening deeply to hear the voice of my body and consciousness in deciding on treatment plans, and more has been monopolizing on my bandwidth and...

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Introspective Being

My heart keeps being called into deep introspective states of non-verbal perception and knowing. Co-arising with this call is a knowing of the necessity to repose in this way of living and experiencing life to ensure uninhibited purge, transmutation, and recreation of inner landscapes. A new foundation for being is prepared by dismantling and metabolizing the old in its more subtle and unconscious layers of existence. With it the process...

Choice

I don’t get to tell people how to love me  I get to see how they love and then choose if I want to participate. ~Iyanla Vanzant I feel this is one of the most important lessons on boundaries and choices I have been learning in the past years through contrast and divine discontentment. My long years of investment in emotional maturation enables me to be ruthlessly and radically...

From Safety to Sweetness

I have been noticing lately several people pointing out that what they are currently looking for in relating is emotional safety. And it made me reflect on why that didn’t fully resonate with what I am experiencing and wanting to delve into more. Safety has for the longest time been on the forefront of my mind, though it referred to physical safety from potential harm through violence. But that...

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