Though not having been totally isolated from socializing, my past years have been spent in a calming and healing retreat by keeping my circle small and interactions with strangers transient, short and sweet. In the past six months I have been following the call of my Soul to engage more with others locally, invest my time and energy in exploring spaces of community and service.

One of the surprising insights was how comparatively easy it was to handle the rise in energy expenditure and that I managed to stay mindful of my boundaries and needs throughout most of it. It was quite challenging to step back into the intensity of contrast that a multitude of consciousness level gift us with. Which deepened my gratitude for the privilege of having been granted the privilege of engaging with a beautiful group of Souls who afforded me diversity without the burden of low vibrational drama while I focused on integration and healing. 

Towards the end of this cycle of tinkering with engagement in various communities I found my awareness being drawn to prune and purge until only that which felt aligned and life-affirming remained. Inducing me to walk away from things lacking in integrity and a healthy flow, from people with whom I did not want to work anymore, from relating that was too draining and of little benefit.

I am grateful for the shift in energy that brought a lot of novelty, movement, community and joy into my experience. Though only few external changes would be visible or accessible to another, my life feels completely changed and transformed. The one I was just months ago would be surprised at what I have done, achieved, learned, discerned, the clarity gained and the state of being I get to savor today. 

I release some of the things I welcomed into my life with my heartfelt gratitude for the joy, experiences, lessons and growth they afforded me and hold on with gratitude to the things that have enhanced my wellbeing and brought local community back into my life. My awareness is gently focused on the path that is calling me and revealing my next steps and challenges as I walk it in trust and playful glee.

The veils that had shrouded my vision have been lifted, and I am patiently attuning to the new melody weaving itself into the symphony of my Soul and embodiment. The past decades have sensitized me to the subtleties and delights of moments of transition, the complexities of infinite threads being in the flux reweaving and reconnecting within the All That Is as we collectively evolve and embody new and expanded expressions of consciousness.

This new melody necessitates new levels and acuteness of discernment to uphold a new vibrational harmony and protect it from falling into a less helpful or even harmful dissonance. A knowing and acceptance of new boundaries and a call for higher integrity and accountability towards my Soul and the service to Life I came here for. An easing away from attachments to individual needs towards flowing in harmony with the flow of the field and Soul community I am meant to serve and evolve with. 

Old storylines and narratives have been illuminated to make their emptiness and lower consciousness limits visible, old dreams and desires are losing their shine and attraction. I learned that some people come into my life to help me see that a dream has served its role and needs to be buried. Buried so that it can fertilize the field from which a higher dream may arise and manifest in harmony with who I am becoming.  

I know that the way I live my life now must feel callous, cold-hearted, or unloving to those whose path is one that is beholden to the phenomenal world and reductionistic narratives. And I accept their perceptions, judgements, and vitriol as par for the course. An invitation to lean more into the teachings of the void and formlessness to help this body weather the contrast triggered by disappointing other’s expectations rooted in old paradigm storylines. But I cannot return to living such a small, limited, and painful life as I used to live while living in the old stories, my being longs for the freedom, spaciousness, subtle luminosity of emergent storylines and the co-creative play of presence.

My Soul longs to repose with others primarily in fields of aware ease and grace, with honesty, compassion, care and infinite love for the mystery of life. Where the playing out of unconscious archetypal scripts through egos in their grandeur and victimhood are minimal and can be observed, known, and laughed about by all. And yet I know we live on a planet where the majority lives deeply entrenched in the death culture arising from separation consciousness, domination and exploitation systems, and trauma-fueled unconsciousness. Which is why I make space for engagements on other dimensions of consciousness, offering a shoulder to lean on, a few uplifting words, gentle invitations to awakening and small ways of alleviating suffering where possible. 

Knowing that being embodied comes with the limits of the state of our nervous system and physical resources, I choose to be a loving steward of my body by honoring her boundaries and limits as to what I can expose myself to and what needs to be avoided. It is a strangely messy and beautiful dance to be consciousness embodied as a human.

What a joyous and expansive new field of experiences my being has been guided towards. 

With thanks for the abundance I get to experience, the beauty of the beings I get to witness and support, the insights and expansions I get to have and the deepening of trust and surrender I am savoring.  

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A time that calls to us to turn within, to retreat from the bustle and rush of man-made reality, to rest in communion with our essence, and reflect upon our year while safely reposing in the arms of the Dark Mother. Listening to her words of wisdom, love, and guidance, we may joyously and gratefully receive her precious gifts of inspiration and emulate her generosity by gifting and sharing of ourselves with others.
This is a time of seeding new beginnings and nurturing these with the heat of our passions for being, consciousness, creative play and love. In her dark and fertile realm everything exists in potentiality, available to any consciousness which calls it skillfully forth into matter and form.

This is is the cradle from which everything is born into our experience.

Here we are being initiated for what wants to be lived and experienced by us and others.

Open yourself dear heart, allow the subtle energies to gently wash away the dust from your windows of perception, allow the Dark Mother to take what no longer serves you and alchemize it, embracing her potent stillness before new creations arise and call you to play. Step out of your comfort zone, face your shadow play, and let your Soul’s song lead you to the precipice of the gifts of life that await you.

Surrender and allow yourself to be held by the Dark Mother as your Soul remakes you.

Trust and know that you are loved, infinitely loved and supported in more ways and dimensions than you ever can be aware of.

Bowing in gratitude to the Dark Mother in her season.

Blessed be as we journey this season of abundance beloved Soul kin.

Photography by Vlad Sokolovsky

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The first thing she pushed for is taking action to tie up any and all loose ends of the past and close out past cycles fully and start with a clean slate.Then she clearly and unmistakably laid down new boundaries and brought all other selves in line with a new vision of selfhood and life.

These are some of the intentions and trajectories my self-leadership set for this new cycle: 

I am closing the door on my past and certain people of said past. This is a line in the energetic sand, a barrier to all who played a painful part in teaching me about lies, betrayal, disloyalty, manipulation, abandonment. Though they are wholeheartedly forgiven there will be no new chances, no reconciliation, no return to my life in this incarnation-even if they have changed or experienced enlightenment. This is my gift and promise to the wounded little girl, in honor of the pain and devastation she suffered and we transcended to become whole and choose better. 

I am closing the door on my ego’s antics and no longer willing to allow parts of myself that wreak havoc and invite pain to have more than a ‘consulting’ part in my life and choices. I no longer accept the drama and distortions my ego keeps instigating to disrupt inner peace and darken experiences. My energy will be channeled towards focusing on all that enhances, supports and expands my experience in wholesome and evolutionary ways without the taint of self-harming dynamics.

I am holding myself to moving away from anyone or anything that disrupts my peace or tries to bind me to unconscious patterns, regardless if they are within or without. I give myself permission to terminate without further explanation any connection that persistently shows up in an immature and disharmonious vibration. 

I am holding myself to practicing intuitive discernment in my encounters, exchanges and sharing with others. Tempering energies as best I can, transmuting what needs transmuting, amplifying the light or darkness whenever such medicine is needed, and walking away in honoring of the guidance I receive.

I am holding myself to keep nourishing my soul by seeking and co-creating play, sweetness, lightness and joy which fill my being with bliss.

I am holding myself to keep my attention, focus and energy on what needs love, compassion, caring, building, creating, nurturing, and witnessing. 

I am holding myself to embodying the fullest version of Self I possibly can. Being gentle with my failings yet disciplined and persistent in my efforts to BE better. 

I am holding myself to showing up with kindness, compassion and love and to never stay the sword of truth and wisdom whenever a moment calls for it. 

And so the new self expresses in a new soul song and begins her dance with the new year and energies…

Photography: Dora Maar by Man Ray, 1936

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Do not touch me and keep your soul out of your fingertips…

Die into me or don’t come to me at all.

~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer

Happy new year, 

Happy new being.

Welcoming new baselines for relating,

Welcoming new soul tribe who are destined to share and create with me.

Welcoming fellow mystics, spiritual warriors, sky fathers, earth mothers, healers, shamans, alchemists and divine children and our magical co-creations.

Welcoming souls capable of soaring to the heights of Spirit and diving into the depth of shadow with ease, dancing through iterations of death and rebirth, laughing with the ego while leaving it behind to play in formlessness and selflessness, returning to selfhood with glitter in the eyes and a knowing smile…

Welcoming new storylines of integration, abundance, wellbeing, joy, love and consciousness for ourselves, humanity and our planetary and cosmic kin.

And so we begin.

Photography by 신 선혜 (Shin Seonhye)

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To break or decompose into constituent elements, parts, or small particles.                               To undergo a change in composition.

Disintegration is an intrinsic part of our human life and spiritual journey. We experience it not only during the so-called dark night of the soul but also in cycles of purification, purging and at the onset of major new beginnings. 

Most who experiences it for the first time get caught up in the egoic fear of ego death which can be so intense and paralyzing it keeps us stuck in the storm. Yet whenever we manage to sit with our experience, breathe into it and bring awareness to our sensations, feelings and thoughts we can find moments of calm and replenish our energy. When we practice presence and delve deeper into our experience we eventually tap into other layers of feelings like peace, awe (for the mystery of our life and being), joy (of existence), playfulness and excitement. 

May we all learn to step courageously into the genius and potentiality of the chaotic aliveness of disintegration, expanding further into the vastness of existence as we dance a new aligned composite into being!

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When relationships shift or end I have learned to be vigilant as I keep my ego on a short leash to assure it doesn’t play out the narratives of break ups and suffering it has been conditioned to believe.
I do not allow it to denigrate the other to make itself feel superior, I do not allow it to wallow in thoughts of a victim mindset, I do not allow my ego to take its feelings and thoughts to social media that can in any way that can be hurtful and disrespectful of another’s privacy.
Instead I remind it of the good times shared with that person, the good traits and deeds of the other I appreciate, I keep reminding it of my wholeness, capacity for creating joy and the beautiful network of love and connection I have surrounded myself with… and I make it reflect on the on the mistakes I made in relating with that one and on the lessons to be learned from it.

Regardless how unfair, low or dark the other might act in their self-inflicted pain I will keep to the higher road, reminding myself that I used to do similar disservice to myself and others when I was less experienced and insightful and deepening in my compassion for them as I forgive myself my past mistakes.

I know that whatever is leaving my life or changing form is only making space for a renewal and better things to come and so I can let go with more dignity and integrity than before and without succumbing to lower vibrational lures of my subconscious.

I will no longer be beholden to narratives of disempowerment, scarcity, victim mindset and unlove and thank all my teachers and tutors along this pathway to freedom and sovereignty.

Yes, I love the sound of my feet walking away from the neurotic, self-defeating scripts of break ups and relationshifts as I keep choosing love and freedom!

Art: Egyptian queen Hatshepsut by Christiane Vleugels

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